After so long, I met up with Elaine on a one-to-one basis yesterday. Was suppose to meet her at 6pm at Bugis. However, as I was held up at work for a while, I reached there later. When I learn that she was feeling giddy, I rushed to change out of my uniform and out of the hotel. Was so worried that she might just faint without people realising. Girl, must take good care of your health...
After meeting her for less then 30 minutes, I spotted Jamie at Parco. The three of us shopped around for awhile. Jamie went to get her bag and Elaine bought a bag from Bugis Village. Then, we headed to Mos Burger. But as we did not know what to drink from there, decided to go to the Bubble Tea Hut instead. Jamie had to leave for dinner. So it was left with Elaine and I again.
Had a good talk with her there. Told her all about what happened between he and me, what he said to me, what I told him and what he wants me to do... She is just so terrific... Really feel like she is my twin sister. Knows exactly how I am feeling and what I am thinking then... Knows the reason for my every action even though I did not say it out... There is no other one who I can sit down and pour everything out to. Absolutely no one... Thanks girl for all the love and care you have given me... I am sure I am able to brave through all this...
We parted at around 10pm. Called him to pour my sorrows out to him. Heard from Auntie Daisy that Mummy got some $5000 debt to settle and they are pressing her for payment now. Really wonder what is going on in my life. Everything seems to go wrong... I have been feeling miserable since day one of this year... Broke down in the midst of our conversation. Could not tolerate anymore. There was too much for me to handle...
On my way home, felt a little giddy. When I reached my house downstairs, felt nausea. Tried throwing up in the drain but nothing came out. When I reached home, Auntie Irene and Wendy were here. But I was so sick to even look or talk to them. Went to change my clothes and immediately went to bed. Before that, tried throwing up in the toiletbowl once again but to no avail...
At 4am, something eerie happened. The television in my room suddenly turned on by itself!!! Could only turn it off by offing the main switch. Could not describe my feeling then. Not very scared... not very calm as well. A strange smell was sensed near the plug. Scared that something may happen, removed the plug from the switch...
Tried to sleep on the sofa in the living room... Could not get to sleep... Came back to my bed and took me quite a while to sleep...
He called me when I was on my way to work. I know he was being concern. Tried not to scare me further. So he tried to make me think that it was just an illusion. However, I overlooked it. I immediately screamed at him. Not bothering about the people around me. I said that he do not trust me at all... hate this type of people... ask him not to talk to me again...
At work, after I cooled down, I realised that I was too harsh on me. Messaged him to tell him I will be going to Chinatown to ask for quotation for our India trip... And apologize to him for treating him that way.
Mummy called me when I was at work. Told me she heard from Daddy about what happened to me last night. I told him about it this morning... Said our ancestors came back to visit us... That was why... Was suppose to go and pray... But the lady was not around already then... She will do so for me tomorrow.
No travel agents in Chinatown organises trips to India!!! Unbelievable!!! Wonder where do people go if they wants to purchase packages to India... Anyone knows? Shall surf the Internet to find out. We are thinking of taking the plane from Malaysia. Will be cheaper that way too...
Called him after that... Asked him if he wants to meet. Was feeling tired actually then but did not feel like going home. Miss him as well...
Said to meet at City Hall. Went back there, walked around aimlessly while waiting for him. Thought of buying something for him to make up for what I did to him in the morning. Decided on a muffin from Mrs Fields. Wrote words on it as well...
After showing him the muffin, I still brought it home. He never eats cakes and muffins and god knows what else!!!
Went for Dinner at Lau Pa Sat... As usual... This time round, ordered a total of 24 satays!!! And a plate of cockle fried rice. The rice is nice... Nicer then the previous time when we tried...
Sent him to work before taking a bus back. Slept in the bus. Was really tired...
He is going to accompany his sister to buy sari for that girl tomorrow. Was filled with jealousy when I learnt about it. Will I ever be able to win him back? His family likes that girl so much already... Treat her like family already... He loves his family alot... Will he do anything to hurt them. No... Never... Impossible I guess... But my heart aches each time I hear things about her. HELP!!! Let me out of this misery!!!
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
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